Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Pride is a Cheater

Pride is a Cheater

My name is Pride. I am a cheater.
I cheat you of your God-given destiny...because
you demand your own way.

I cheat you of contentment...because
you "deserve better than this."

I cheat you of knowledge ...because
you already know it all.

I cheat you of healing...because
you're too full of me to forgive.

I cheat you of holiness...because
you refuse to admit when your wrong.

I cheat you of vision...because
you'd rather look in the mirror than out a window.

I cheat you of genuine friendship...because
nobody's going to know the real you.

I cheat you of love...because
real romance demands sacrifice.

I cheat you of greatness in Heaven...because
you refuse to wash another's feet on earth.

I cheat you of God's glory...because
I convince you to seek your own.

My name is Pride. I am a cheater.

You like me because you think I'm always looking out for you.

Untrue.


I'm looking to make a fool of you.


God has so much for you, I admit, but don't worry...
If you stick with me


You'll never know.

Monday, October 26, 2009

A few days with the kids

October 24, 2009
Ella loves to say "MICHAEL!" or "MIKE" - what is so funny is I dont call him Michael, so I dont know where she got it. Her vocabulary is very large and she uses everything correctly! She is very polite and always saying, Thank you, Momma Dadda. She even says your're welcome!

Alex and Ella were are in their toddler beds tonght for the first time (it was chaos)....they were both scared and overwhelmed with this new found freedom and Alex came over and kissed Ella and whispered "nite nite, sissy." Ohhhhhhhh

Austin is getting so strong, he pushes himself up on his knees and his feet (like a push up) - he will be crawling soon I am sure. He is such a happy baby, doest take much effort for him to beam from ear to ear!

October 25, 2009
I went to check on Alex and Ella after they were asleep, as I always do, and I looked in Ella's bed and both Alex and Ella were back to back in her bed. Mike got the video camera..it was so sweet. Then about an hour later Alex rolled over and Ella fell out of bed, so we put Alex in his bed and they went right back to sleep.

November 10, 2009
We had to hurry and find a tent crib for Alex's bed this evening. For the past two days he has been climbing out, this morning he peeked around the corner and I could only see half of his face as he sneakingly smiled. Then at nap time I found him in Ellas bed and they were jumping, they missed their naps and were EXHASUTED! After two days of no naps, I said we HAVE to do something - its not fair to Ella or anyone for that matter! So now he is tenting out in his crib day and night - I said to Mike, now why didnt we think of tht invention! ??? : )


November 12, 2009
Tina came with me this evening to get the kids flu shots, I am glad she helped because I think it would have been very difficult had she not. Afterwards, they were offering orange juice and animal crackers. There were two high school aged kids and they were watching the kids interact as they got their juice and cookies. The one boy said, "did you just see that?" ...the girl said she did not. He said, they just held up their cups as if they were giving each other a cheers. I said, "yes, my mom taught them that...but they usually say cheers." The girl was diappointed she missed it and the boy thought it was the coolest.

Mike was reading the Feelings book at bedtime this evening and he got to the page that says...Somestimes I feel like dancing. Ella said "I feel like dancing" and she hopped off Daddy's lap and held out her hands and said, "Bubbie dance!" and they held hands and were dancing around together.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

And so we grow...

Alex and Ella are speaking so well now, saying 4 to 5 words in a sentence, it amazes me how much they know! We are working on letters and colors and that is coming along slowly. Ella is loving her little brother, Austin... and Alex is just getting use to the idea that he is staying for good! It was tough for him at first, but I thnik he has decided it's cool being a big brother. We need to start potty training but I am putting it off as long as I can. We do have potty's upstairs and down, so they are trying and sitting. Again, I am putting it off. uugh

Austin is a very happy little baby, we've settled in with him quite nicely and are really enjoying his personality seeking through now as he tries to sound syllables and roll everywhere, he is so strong! and SO big! He is a whopper in weight, nearly 20 pounds, but his height is way up there too. We started him on rice cereal and fruit and trying to give him puree veggies...he is learning to eat and coming along nicely. So much more to report on Austin since there is so many changes going on with him.

Ella told me this morning that she wants to go to church. I've been doing a bible study on Tuesday mornings, then Wed night church, then every other thursday we go to MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) and church on Sunday of course! So they get real excted about going to church, I'm glad they enjoy it as much as we do.

Friday, I threw my back out while I was picking Austin up out of his crib, thankfully he went back into his crib as I fell to the floor and could not move at all. At first I kept saying - this is horrible, this is horrible. I just do not like the feeling of being completely helpless, I guess who would like that? My chiropractor came to the house and did some massage and brought a brace, later in the afternoon Tina brought me to my appointment with the chiropractor, then stayed with me until Mike woke up from his nap before he had to work. I relied on my neighbor Sally and her kiddos. Sally was so sweet and came over at 630am to feed Austin, what a gem she is. Then on Saturday Catherine, a friend from church came to help and she brought dinner....she ended up staying overnight because she said she would have worried all night if she hadnt. It was such a nice feeling to know we had people who cared and were going out of their way to help us. Then some meals came from church friends and now tonight Mike has to go back to work for one night and another dear friend from church, Teri is coming to bring dinner and get the kids to bed. I told her I would be fine by then, but she insisted on helping and I sure do appreciate her for that. I praise God for showing me once gain that we do have people we can depend on when we are in a pinch. I even got a card in the mail from some MOPS gals who said they were praying for a quick recovery. I'm just so thankful to be reminded of the kindness we have all around us. I look forward to the time I can help someone else out in their time of need.

Today we went to a gym that had all sorts of mats and trampolines and toys for the kids to play with. They had a blast, they will have a nice long nap today! This weekend I hope we can make it to a pumpkin patch, there are so many around...we just dont have enough time to get to them all. This is such a lovely time of year. Its cooling down, the leaves are changing and before we know it there will be Thanksgiving, then my favorite - Christmas!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

My testimony - how I came to know the Light of the World

I grew up with very little background of God and my family was not involved with Jesus or His church. In August 1998, out of the blue I asked a guy named Tim whom I was working with at the time, Who is God? God had placed a mature Christian in my path and I didn’t even know it at the time. Over the next several weeks he and another gal named Tricia walked through who Jesus is, they explained that how God created the Earth and everything in it and He sent His son who laid down his life for me and for all sin for all time. They showed me in scripture how Jesus died and that He rose again three days later and sent the Holy Spirit to guide all those who believe in him. The bible spoke to my heart, one day I was in church and I didn’t know why I wanted to walk forward and pray, but I did. I accepted Jesus free gift of salvation and I wasn’t even 100 percent sure what that meant, but I decided I was going to believe and trust in Jesus. In November 1998 I was saved and Baptized, Tim and Tricia led me to Christ and I am so glad they did. They thoughtfully gave me a bible with my name scripted on it. Little did I understand that my name was also now written in the great book of heaven and could never be erased. (Romans 8:1-2) I had never had a bible until then. I didn’t formally have anyone to mentor me afterwards, and I wandered back to my old ways shortly after I received Christ. I felt I could do things on my own strength, so God let me go back to my old ways. Looking back he kept me safe from many paths that could have led me to complete disaster, Now I realize how much he protected me from my sin and my terrible choices. I am just thankful those sins are covered by the blood of Jesus and are forgotten forever.
In 2003, I was living in Colorado, after a terrible breakup and heart ache, I decided my ways weren’t working and I was seeking after the Lord once again. Slowly over time God revealed himself to me and I was feeling connected once again. I honestly don’t know how it began, but during my lunches for several weeks Gwen at work would teach me about the fundamental things in the bible about the Jews and the Gentiles and she would spend time going over the timeline of events and helped me get rooted in the tree of life. She gave me a study bible which I keep by my side to this day. When I left Colorado she was sad to see me leave, but I’ll never forget what she said, “I’ll get to be in eternity with you, Lizz.” She cared enough to answer my questions and take time with me to make sure I understood the truth. I was already saved; I just needed some tender care. Also during this time, my dear friend MaryAnn and I met with Laney at her house once a week with a few other gals from work and we discussed the bible and I had lots of questions as a baby Christian. I was still grasping at laying a solid foundation. Laney graciously took me under her wing, showed me the path to start and follow and the Lord did the rest over time. God made the bible come alive to me on many occasions and he would slowly reveal more as he allowed me to understand more.
It wasn’t until I moved to Kansas that I really began to have a more personal relationship with Jesus. I am still learning and growing in Christ, He reveals more to me the more closer I get to Him. While I don’t have all the answers, nor would I expect to, I do have faith. My faith is in Jesus and His promise. I take Him at His word and promise. I am so thankful He allowed me to hear the call of Jesus and He gave me the courage to respond to Him. May I give God glory in all that I say and do. Although I fall most days, I am so grateful for my Savior, He laid down His life for me and my sin is wiped out and forgotten forever. What a loving God I serve. Thank you, Creator of the universe, for picking me to follow you. The All knowing Sovereign God has given me a map (the bible) and the holy spirit to help me navigate through this adventure filled life, and with all the challenges and distractions we are presented with I am just trying to find my way back home. I know I can get through anything here because as God has promised in Deuteronomy 31:6, I will never leave you or forsake you. And also Jeremiah 29:11, God has plans to prosper me, not destroy me. For I know I won’t really feel at home until the day comes when Jesus comes upon my shadow of death here on earth and as my last breath is taken, I will immediately be in His loving arms and care. Then, I will be home with my heavenly father.

For anyone reading this, I ask you to consider asking yourself this question, Do you know where are you are going when you leave this earth? You need to know. Choosing God is not for the weak, and actually, God already chose those who are His children. So really it is His will for us. God chose me. I challenge anyone who has never read the word of God, open the bible, read it, ask God to open your ear s and soften your heart. Start with the book of John, then read the rest of the new testament and see if God captures your heart. He is waiting for you.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6


For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death Romans 8 1-2


Psalm 23
The LORD is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
Even when I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me.
You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD
forever.

5This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. 7But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[a] sin.
8If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 10If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.
– 1 John 5:10 (NIV)

With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all. – Acts 4:33 (NIV)

However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace. – Acts 20:24 (NIV)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

My "Paul"

This is what my "Paul" has spoken about the Lord....

Everyone needs a Paul (leader) and everyone needs a Timothy (follower)

Everything you have is from the Lord.

Give God the glory for all the good that happens to you.

There is nothing that happens in your life that doesn’t go through the hands of God first.

Go alone, or go with the Lord

Choosing the Lord you are choosing life, you don't have to suffer alone

The love of God will not place you, where the grace of God cannot keep you.

Pray for people, pray for spiritual gifts, who can I bless?

Respect and fear God

God wants you to want Him and seek Him with your whole heart. God does not and will not make you love Him.

It's not going to be done for you, your way - It's His way, always.

You will fall every day, ask for forgiveness. Say sorry and give THANKS.

The Lord knows exactly what He is doing.

The Lord is the same yesterday, today and always. (Hebrews 13:7-9)

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him
Romans 8:28

Walk steady, strong and straight into His loving arms.

Seek to understand the power of God, trust Him, rest, be joyful.

Today, what do you want me to do? Show me what you want me to do.

Jesus took away ALL sin for ALL people, now we have the decision to choose.

Ask God...teach me how to love you (God), trust, have faith, discernment. You MUST believe first that the Bible is the Lord's written word and truth.


Here are some versus I want to share. To those whose hearts are hardened, the bible sounds foolish. It is far from foolish. If we have a question about our car, we go to the owners manual. Just as when we have a question about our life and why we are here, We go to the Bible and to the Lord, the Maker of the universe and all things in it. I pray every day for friends and families hearts to be open, to hear and recieve the word of God...I have to trust that if it is God's will for them, then it will be. Meanwhile, I can only ask and keep asking for their hearts to hear the truth. Oh the peace and joy they would feel if they only knew the Savior, the Creator of the universe.

There is only one verse in the bible that tells us how to get to Heaven. One way, you can either choose it or you don't. People don't want it to be that easy, but it is. Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, 17 so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. 2 Peter 3:16

Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God. 1 Peter 1:21

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 1 Peter 2:9

The human heart is deceitful:

“The human heart is the most deceitful of all things,and desperately wicked.
Who really knows how bad it is?
But I, the Lord, search all hearts and examine secret motives. I give all people their due rewards, according to what their actions deserve.” Jeremiah 17:9-10


No matter if you believe or not, it says in the bible over and over. Every knee will bow and every mouth shall say, Jesus is Lord. "every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess" is Isaiah 45:23. Paul quoted his own adaptation of Isaiah in the New Testament books of Romans (14:11) and Philippians (2:10,11)
"that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. - Philippians (2:10,11)

"Remember those who rule over you, who have spoken the word of God to you, whose faith follow, considering the outcome of their conduct. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Do not be carried about with various and strange doctrines." - Hebrews 7-9

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Forgot to post this

Alex is really starting to understand his colors. He calls Orange New New, because thats how orange is said, of course! : ) He sees "Daddy's trains" and says new new train,

Ella is in the phase now that I want...I want... and whatever her hearts desire is after I want. I want drink, I want eat, I want duckie, and the list goes on to what the little girl wants...uh oh, look out!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

It wont be like this for long

I heard the Darius Rucker song many months back, its called, "It won't be like this for long" - its such a wonderful song about his little girl who grows up before his eyes. There is one part of the song in there that I hold onto, because looking at my babies, I know the terrible two's won’t be like this for long and really, will I remember how terrible it can be sometimes? Probably not. Each phase in their lives I've really tried to embrace(except for the first 4 months with the twins - I was just surviving initially)at 4 months it was easier, then 6 a little easier, then by 9 months "okay I can do this", 12 months "wow this keeps getting better!" Now we made it almost two years and the growth they have had in just 12 months is astonishing, really. Now with Austin I try and embrace each day, because I have already experienced how fast it is happening before our eyes. And with him it seems even faster! Sorry, got a little off track.

I love the part in the song by Darius Rucker, when he sings..."He kisses her goodnight and she says her prayers, he lays down there beside her til her eyes are finally closed, just watching her it breaks his heart cuz he already knows, it wont be like this for long...one day soon that little girl is gonna be all grown up and gone. This phase is going to fly by, if you can just hold on, it wont be like this for long." God does see what we can't, he already knows every breath and moment we take from the very beginning to our last, I surely can hear him saying to me, it won't be like this for long in times that I wonder will it end? I hear him gently say, wait til you see what I have around the corner for you. It's better than you could have imagined, because it is His way, not ours. He is for ALL good, not evil. Thanks to my wonderful bible study, which I have learned so much and so enjoyed. Our God is so good.

This song not only reminds me to live in the moment with my children (which I truly mostly do, because so many people have told me it flies by and it really does), but it also reminds me that this season in life is so short. When God gives us trials in our life we look back and realize His hand through it all, although sometimes it's hard to see Him at work when you are experiencing it, isn’t it?

I just know in every trial whether it be a good one or not so good, His ways are not our ways and I am brought back to Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." All His ways are for good. And our life on earth is such a short period of time, so our trials are even shorter, "only for a season" I like to say, and we know how fast those go! We never know what God has for us right around the corner. We need to let God lead the way and let Him hold the torch at every corner, curve, straight away, uphill and down because He can lead us and will deliver us. It is His promise. It won't be like this for long.

My bible study inspired me to write my above words, thank you ladies. In such a short time, I've come to realize you are all so lovely, thanks for your wisdom and kindness.

Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. Ephesians 6:17

For our present troubles are small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!
2 Corinthians 4:17, NLT